Here we are then, made another week. A busy one , but perhaps not as financially productive as I would have liked it to be. But lots of things done, nearly completed costumes for a wonderful dance group, made examples for my workshop at the Tetley next month, learned about the Spanish Fallas in Valencia, picked the first peas and beans from the garden, commissioned my bee hive to be made, and most importantly caught up with a friend I haven’t seen in a while. Thanks universe.
Progress is an odd old thing. What may be a massive step forward to one may only be a small step to another sole. And who’s to say where we should be in our lives other than us, though we all often are judged by where we are in the path that is our life. I know for sure the biggest judge of how well I am making progress on my life path is the inner me. Now there is truly a hard taskmaster.
First time in a long time I have been ‘home alone’ . Well home alone except for the cat and the dog!! Well I think yesterdays collage has been influenced by my excitement of enrolling in a bee keeping course. One step closer to having my own hive!
Well a heavy day of hunting work . All began well, but as the sun rose, my enthusiasm and keenness slumped . And I still haven’t updated my CV a job I set out to do, oh dear. Still todays collage done and posted so all is well , even if I haven’t found the next paid work.
Motivation, where does it come from? I am not sure, deadlines, love, hate, and all in between I suppose . Where ever it comes from mine has been hiding this week for sure. When there are so many people in the world in fighting to survive unimaginable difficulties, my troubles diminish into a tiny pinhole. That is except when I am stuck in my own dark place. In my dark place, it is the loneliest, darkest place I have ever been or seen or heard about. And I don’t know how I get there and I don’t know how I get back. But I am back, and here I am caught up with my small task of making a collage a day.
Things are often hard, and some people choose not to show the pain they are feeling. We should all try to remember that we don’t always know how others are feeling inside, and just because they choose to be private doesn’t mean they are not suffering, and we need to remember to try and be kind to everyone we come into contact with .
Another month has begun , here are day one and two.